Run no. 48 49 & 50 – Running Endure or Enjoy

cumulative choices

Distance: 4.53 miles   Time: 41’47””  (PB 38’ 28”)

Distance: 4.53 miles   Time 42’ 30”

Distance: 4.53 miles   Time 42’ 30”

It was as a teenager that I first started running. At school I discovered, much to my surprise, that I was quite good at long distance running, in the top 5 of my class of 30.

I was tall and skinny, with long legs, and was probably at that time of life when you enjoy the highest energy levels that you will ever experience in your lifetime.

I just ran for fun. I exalted in it. I don’t ever remember having to force myself outside, even in awful weather (and this was in Scotland!). I just loved running and it was glorious.

I don’t know when it stopped being an enjoyment and became more of an endurance, probably when I hit my late 30s.

I started having to coerce myself into going out, to rationalize why running was a good thing to do, to convince myself of the health benefits, the psychological benefits, and even the spiritual benefits of running.

Images like the one above typify the process. Of course it’s not a completely truthful picture. Genes also play a part, and the luck of the draw regarding where you happen to be born, the avoidance of accidents and disease etc. But at least embracing regular exercise puts you on the side of the angels.

I now find I enjoy about the first third of my runs. After that it just feels like hard work; an endurance.

Certainly, there is the endorphin kick when you finish and the positive sense of achievement that although more than 50 summers have passed, you are still active, still running, still fitter than many.

But on the whole the enjoyment is somewhat diminished and it feels more like an endurance.

I think the same principles apply to spiritual health and growth.

There is in my tradition a set of activities that have been time proven over the millennia to lead to spiritual health and growth, they are listed as disciplines of abstinence and disciplines of engagement.

Disciples of Abstinence –

Solitude, Silence, Fasting, Frugality, Chastity, Secrecy, Sacrifice


Disciplines of Engagement –

Charity, Study, Worship, Celebration, Service, Prayer, Fellowship, Confession, Submission

Like running, the practice of these disciplines is sometimes an enjoyment. For example it can sometimes feel great to give to a cause where you know your money will make a massive difference in someone’s life. Sometimes prayer feels like a direct connection to God and you come away feeling energised and with clarity about what you should do in your life.

But there will also be times, when doing what you know will lead to your spiritual health and growth, is the last thing you feel like doing.

It is usually in these moments, when you least feel like doing the right thing, that you most need to. And if you do, it becomes a real sacrifice, offered to God, and of eternal value and significance.

For you have chosen the spiritual over the physical, you have decided to place your treasure ‘in heaven’ and not on earth.

You have put God’s will before your own, you are in a place to change the destiny of universe, one act at a time.

As shown in the image above, our lives are the accumulation of our choices – choices to prioritise the spiritual or the physical, choices to do what’s right, or what feels best.

Sometimes good choices are enjoyable, sometimes they must be endured. But they are always the right thing to do.